We spend a lot of our time in our P’J’s. It’s not something I am particularly fond of but it’s just the way our days work out. Anyone with kids knows the task it is to get everyone ready for an outing and most days it’s not worth it. I am extroverted and get very energized from being around people so naturally one of my biggest struggles of being a stay at home has been the isolation from the world. Particularly after having Ada, we began to spend most days at home. I began struggling with some depression and felt that my life lacked value. My outlook on life was bleak and I spent a lot of that season complaining to my husband about how tough it all was. Before you have kids everyone will share how hard it is to be a parent but nothing can prepare you for child rearing. It is an intense responsibility that takes all the commitment you can muster up because being a parent means surrendering your daily life for your children. I admit that sounds negative but what I am learning is nothing is more beautiful than sacrifice. It is grueling, it hurts, it strips you of your selfishness and forces you to constantly think and care for others above yourself. It is a hard lesson that comes with much fruit. I have not arrived and far from perfect.
I love being a stay at home mom. It’s a raw and clear depiction of the growth I need in my life. When you are home day to day there is nothing to hide and my true attitude is always revealed. I am continuously learning to find joy and beauty in our day to day P.J dancing, messy house, constant correcting, giggles and endless snacking. When I stop and think of my wants I am always brought back to a place of gratitude to God. I am thankful that I have the opportunity to be a steward of young life and that being home allows me a chance to quiet my heart and see the treasure I have been given.